I had my life planned out. Get married. Enjoy my career. Keep good friends. Stay close to family. The past two years I’ve lost a husband, a good job, my grandmother, and friendships that I thought were made out of steel. Only to realize that I’m not impermeable: I am weak, vulnerable, and suffer the effects of trauma like everyone I see on Grey’s Anatomy. My tears are genuine grief of a history I can’t rewrite no matter how hard the pain is inside my heart. There is a bittersweet taste to life. Through dark moments, digging through the pits of my soul, I learned this: God loves you even when you lack reasons to love yourself and that for me, is the seed in which I use to rebuild my life again.
Song: Sarah Bareilles “Breathe Again”
Grey’s Anatomy fave line: “keeping myself together with tape, and glue”~ M. Bailey, Season 7
Surah Al Baqarah, portion of Verse from the Noble Quran 2:286:
Allah does not charge a soul except [with that within] its capacity. It will have [the consequence of] what [good] it has gained, and it will bear [the consequence of] what [evil] it has earned. “Our Lord, do not impose blame upon us if we have forgotten or erred. Our Lord, and lay not upon us a burden like that which You laid upon those before us. Our Lord, and burden us not with that which we have no ability to bear. And pardon us; and forgive us; and have mercy upon us…”
Fringe of the Ummah 